Small step

Bf just popped the big question. 

That was weeks ago actually. But he just asked my mom, before go to my father. 

That was quite HUGE.

Will keep ya posted. Xx

Before I kick the bucket

people may not realized yet but i know by heart they have their very own bucket list. I also have mine. Although it is not a list yet. Because I barely made my things-to-do list for a day, let alone a bucket list. But it definitely something that i need to put on my to-do list, to make a bucket list. and that is going to be one listoception. Ha ha ha

Seriously.

Okay before i go to the list of things i want or do before i die, let me explain this: "bucket-list" term comes from the idiom "to kick the buckets" which in America means to die. Hence, having a bucket list means you have a list of things to do before you kick the bucket. And what is the correlation between kicking the bucket and dying, you know when people hang them self they usually stand on the upside down bucket, and put the hanging rope around the neck, and in order to get them self hung, they need to kick the bucket and ta-da. bye world. 

It may sounds scary the terms "kicking the bucket" because it closely related to kill yourself, But having a bucket list is really doesn't scary at all. it actually fun. Like when you finally can cross your all time dreams, and then you ready to die / you can finally rest in peace. 

Hmm.. my bucket list.. 

I always have problem when i need to remember something, especially in times like this. I have trouble to gather my memory of my bucket list. they are like pieces of info scattered all over places, i should gather later depends on location and moment. definitely not now. But one thing i always remember that i really wanna try magic shrooms before I get on a theme park extreme ride. I'm gonna be so high *if you know what i mean*

- I also really wanna try skinny dipping in a middle of the night. Well, maybe not gonna happen in awhile since i have to work on my body first before i strip naked. 

- under water kiss. Tried it. Hard. Especially on the sea.

- dance in the rain.

There i gave you some numbers of my bucket list. I definitely gonna add some more and actually make a list. The thing is, on writing a bucket list, there is no rules nor regulation, you can put anything on it, even to obtain something before you die. Even though there is no rules, i think you  need to set your own boundaries in order to make your bucket list more realistic and cross-able. To me, my boundaries are:

1. that it doesn't have anything to do with money. I mean, my list is not about something that money can buy, because it is going to be a soul-fulfillment out of curiosity. I know soul-fulfillment can come from stuff you bought but, my list is not about that.  

2. Even though some of my wildest curiosity is pretty wild. I wont put something against the law. I know it is awesome to have a rushed of adrenaline that come from act of crime. but hey... I'm to old for that shit.

3. It is okay to put name of places to go before you die on your list. even if it still money related. I dont need to reason with you, it's my list so be it.

So, please sit down and try to think of your own bucket list, you dont have to follow my rules, you can be free or set your own rules.

I also gonna do mine and share with you again my one long complete list. 

Free Shots

---- Forwarded Message -----
From: me
To: myself
Sent: Thursday, September 27, 2013 8:51 PM
Subject: day four

September 21, 2013

I dozed off almost a half day. Literally. Bf tried several times to wake me up but i waived. 

Lucky we didn't book any trip for today. So i can crawl all day. 

On 12am i made a sudden move, stood up, and walked straight to the bathroom, because i didn't wanna waste more of our precious last day on phuket. 

Plan is to go to Big Buddha. 

The high light of this site is the location which up on the hills and to get there, you have to ride your motorbike steeply uphills.

The big buddha is a site of a huge statue of buddha. Actually it still under construction and expecting the visitor whose mainly a tourists, or buddhist, to contribute in anything they can financially, to finish all the construction work. You can buy souvenirs, or you can buy a plate of ceramics which you can write anything on . The money will be use to contribute on the constructions. The ceramic plate will also be used to cover the wall of Big Buddha. Mostly, couples buy a plate and write their names on hope their relationship will be forever stated on Big Buddha, means, their relationship will be forever as well. Well, we didn't buy any, so do not expect to see our names later on the wall. 

After Big Buddha, we rushed to pathong to catch the sun. And we managed to absorb a little of phuket's sun to take home tomorrow. Unfortunately, when the sun were setting, a huge cloud covered the sun. So we missed the sunset. But thats okay, because the night was finally falling. And it was saturday night. I didn't want another hang-over morning, so i planned to just enjoy the night with drinks and musics. bf approved. 

After strolling beach road and bang la, we went to some weird clubs just to feed our curiosity. But after stumbled upon a strip club, we decided to take a couple shots of teq, which 6 shots for 100 THB. We went to Koh Bamboo again to enjoy some reggaes. Lucky that in this bar some customers rang the bells which mean a treat of shot for every guest. Twice. 

But after i finished the last drop of my drinks, i stood up and asked my bf to take me back to our hotel because i can't handle it anymore. I didn't know why, but i was not feeling good. Felt all chilly, and cold sweat started to drop. I even asked to stop before reached our motorbike, and sat on the side of the road. Bf panicked. 

But unlike last night, i was fully aware of what i felt and did. 

Result is: i still didn't know what is my limit upon this alcohol

Yes, sire. i'm that pathetic. 

But i'm proud. ;)

Sleeping dead

-

---- Forwarded Message -----
From: me
To: myself
Sent: Tuesday, September 24, 2013 8:51 PM
Subject: day three

Encoutered the same problem of visiting and writing on this blog, but I fight my procastinatorism and try to finish my Phuket journey. So.. please enjoy my day three.

September 20, 2013

I barely remember what happened last night. But I woke up early and did walk against gravity to the bathroom preparing for our tour to phi-phi island that we planned and booked yesterday. Yippie.

Supposed to be picked on 8 am, but we have to waited until 9 am. Apparently, the bus driver were already downstairs, but he (or some one on receiption) our room but failed to tell us in proper English that the bus was waiting. So miscommunication happened, and we awkwardly enter the bus full of angry caucasians.

After picking up another tourists, we went to the pier. Welcomed by a local tour guide, we have to waited for another school of tourists before we enter the boat. After awhile, we went to our boat. And boom goes the boat.

The boat ride was not a lovely ride. Some tourists barfed. Some tried to sleep. I kept looking to the horizon to keep my inside. Luckily it worked.

I don’t need to explain the tour, because I can’t remember the name, and I was to focused by the beauty of it. You can google it if really want.

After the tour finished and back to hotel, no time to bed. we took a bath and got ready for night life. The plan was to bar hopping all night. I know it was not my scene but there’s Phuket and Bang La for a reason. And that night, the reason was to get me wasted (somehow I need to know my limit with those shooter, and let loose).

We went to some bar with live music. First we went to Red Hot bar, where the band was really attractive and sang a nice collection of musics. Totally recommended. But if you’re more into reggae music like my bf -which starting to get into me- you’re going to love Koh Bamboo Bar right in front of Red Hot bar. I, myself really had a nice time in this bar, I almost asked my bf to take me to Equal Park (his regular reggae bar in Jaksa – Jakarta).

He must be a proud bf if I finally says it.

The bar hopping route was: Red Hot – Koh Bamboo – Holywood – some other clubs I didn’t give a damn whats the name – Tai Pan

The result was I slept like a baby.

No. I slept dead. like real dead.

i got banana

----- Forwarded Message -----
From: me
To: myseld
Sent: Tuesday, September 24, 2013 8:51 PM
Subject: day two

September 19, 2013

Woke up pretty early considering tucked in so late last night. We walked straight to the beach but managed to rent a motor bike on our way. Rent a bike is the cheapest way to take, 200 TBH for 24 hours. but we need to give our passport or 4000 TBH as a collateral. we gave our 4000 TBH, because we were to scare of the idea not holding our passport with us, plus its good that we can keep our 4000 TBH somewhere for later, considering how we spends our bucks.

So off we go!
first stop: a decent breakfast. Initially, we wanted something that screams thailand, but as the hunger growls, anything just good enough. so, we had breakfast on this pretty little restaurant. I actually can't remember the name of the restaurant but the food was average-ish. so the hell with names.

After spoil our tummy, we off to beach named pathong beach. rent a cabana for two for 200THB and I stripped off to my orange bikini and soaked up the sun. I was not looking to get colored. I just love to sleep under the sun, with the sound of the sea. It really was an intoxicating experienced. In fact, i hate the wind there which blew cold wind. It confused the sun ray.

next, after the wind has gotten a little colder, we went to other beach named karon, kata, and kata noi. To us, kata noi is the nicest beach among others. less crowd, and no noisy sales girl and boy offering us anything they can offer. i just love kata beach. it has the perfect composition of sun, and wind. the sands is nicer too. (remember how i hate the sands? still has it)

had late lunch in this small restaurant on Karon main street. that serve food with a free really cold water. and the price was just perfect which took 100THB for two. happy tummy happy money. can't tell you the restaurant though, because it is so small, it doesn't have a sign.

back to hotel, to get ready for the night in a infamous bang la road. plan was to get drunk at a bar and enter a club. and we were. after bottles and cocktail, we had an arguement, that made us drove back to hotel in silent, but managed to resolve and back we went to bang la.

8 tequila shots and we went to banana club to get banana.

and of course, i got banana. xx

ho li day

----- Forwarded Message -----
From: me
To: myself
Sent: Tuesday, September 24, 2013 11:38 AM
Subject: day one

September 18, 2013

no work today. on leave till September 20 just for this vacay with roma (bf). Yeay.

the plan was made on early may, so we already lose all the jitters and goosebumpy feeling along the waiting days. 

had only excitement now. AAAKKK

but unlike all my previous holiday, i didn't do my research about this destination: Phuket.

spontaneous.

Was not a bumpy flight ride, but 3 hours flight of full fight and debate between me and bf is tiring. 

and as soon as we step on thailand territory (well, not quite, since we haven't enter the immigration) we made peace. and kissed.

as soon as we passed the immigration, we were got a welcome gift (at least it was for me) which is free sim card for tourist with a data package, only need to top up which we can do in the nearest convenient store. this is a very wise thing. 

For the transportation, instead of taxi, we took a mini bus for 180THB a person straight to our hotel, Renoir boutique hotel. the driver didn't say anything, not even asked for our hotel. we just waved our tickets and step on to the mini bus. 

we sit tightly in a back corner with other people luggages. because that is the only two-seater left.

We made a stop first at the travel agent and this local asked for our hotel, and offered us some of the tour they have. after that, the driver drove us to our hotel. it was late at night and our hotel not anywhere near the center of nightlife in pathong, so it was rather spooky, and it is thailand, so it is not your fault your imagination getting a little wilder (in a scary way). 

Our hotel the Renoir Boutique Hotel was nice. considering we gambled our luck on agoda, this hotel is not as we expected it would be. Yeah outside was not really convincing, but the room is comfy and all parquet, with a big flat tv and huge queen sized bed. so, all is well. totally gonna put a good recommendation about the hotel on some travel websites!

this first night, we took a stroll to the beach (after had a (frozen) food from 7-eleven). local beers and a bucket of margarita from VW bar on the beach are highlights of this evening. 

tuk-tuk took us back to our hotel for 200THB (expensive)

i dozed off with smile. zz

2013

HIIIII... I'M BACK I'M BACK I'M BACKKK! YES ITS BEEN AWHILE SINCE I WENT AWOL, BUT HERE I AM NOW WITH A NEW POST AND I'M BACK FOR GOOD NOW!
(AND MAYBE I SHOULD TURN OFF THIS CAPS LOCK)

hihihi, I'm sorry with those abusive caps lock, but i cant help those excitement and i feel ENERGIZEDDDDDD. okay now *napas nady napas*, yes now I'm back and this is officially my first post in 2013 (eventhough it is march already, so sorry >.<). Guys, even though i feel so happy to be back here, i dont have anything to be shared.. (again, I'm sorry.. my excuse is gue terlalu bersemangat sampai gue bingung harus ngomong apa hihihi)lets see hmmm apa aja yang terjadi di tahun 2013 ini yaa..


- single. Yes,walaupun beberapa kali berganti-ganti pacar, tapi di tahun 2013 ini lah gue bener-bener single. I feel like I'm detoxing myself from a creature called man. i'm letting them go out of my system and wont let them get me down and desperate. and for the first time, i feel single and care-free.

- family comes first.  last year, i feel like i pulled myself away too much from my family. and i feel so bad udah kayak anak ilang. Tapi sekarang, di tahun yang baru ini i try to make up for it.. menjadi anak yang baik dan ngerawat bokap nyokap. I'm sorry fammiesss..

inti dari apa aja yang terjadi di tahun 2013 itu ya yang diatas ini.. simpel kan?!

NOW, let me give you a quick update from whats happening last week with pictures. 

thats a quick recap of what 2013 has bring to me. lets see whats happen next okay...