Sleeping dead

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From: me
To: myself
Sent: Tuesday, September 24, 2013 8:51 PM
Subject: day three

Encoutered the same problem of visiting and writing on this blog, but I fight my procastinatorism and try to finish my Phuket journey. So.. please enjoy my day three.

September 20, 2013

I barely remember what happened last night. But I woke up early and did walk against gravity to the bathroom preparing for our tour to phi-phi island that we planned and booked yesterday. Yippie.

Supposed to be picked on 8 am, but we have to waited until 9 am. Apparently, the bus driver were already downstairs, but he (or some one on receiption) our room but failed to tell us in proper English that the bus was waiting. So miscommunication happened, and we awkwardly enter the bus full of angry caucasians.

After picking up another tourists, we went to the pier. Welcomed by a local tour guide, we have to waited for another school of tourists before we enter the boat. After awhile, we went to our boat. And boom goes the boat.

The boat ride was not a lovely ride. Some tourists barfed. Some tried to sleep. I kept looking to the horizon to keep my inside. Luckily it worked.

I don’t need to explain the tour, because I can’t remember the name, and I was to focused by the beauty of it. You can google it if really want.

After the tour finished and back to hotel, no time to bed. we took a bath and got ready for night life. The plan was to bar hopping all night. I know it was not my scene but there’s Phuket and Bang La for a reason. And that night, the reason was to get me wasted (somehow I need to know my limit with those shooter, and let loose).

We went to some bar with live music. First we went to Red Hot bar, where the band was really attractive and sang a nice collection of musics. Totally recommended. But if you’re more into reggae music like my bf -which starting to get into me- you’re going to love Koh Bamboo Bar right in front of Red Hot bar. I, myself really had a nice time in this bar, I almost asked my bf to take me to Equal Park (his regular reggae bar in Jaksa – Jakarta).

He must be a proud bf if I finally says it.

The bar hopping route was: Red Hot – Koh Bamboo – Holywood – some other clubs I didn’t give a damn whats the name – Tai Pan

The result was I slept like a baby.

No. I slept dead. like real dead.

i got banana

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From: me
To: myseld
Sent: Tuesday, September 24, 2013 8:51 PM
Subject: day two

September 19, 2013

Woke up pretty early considering tucked in so late last night. We walked straight to the beach but managed to rent a motor bike on our way. Rent a bike is the cheapest way to take, 200 TBH for 24 hours. but we need to give our passport or 4000 TBH as a collateral. we gave our 4000 TBH, because we were to scare of the idea not holding our passport with us, plus its good that we can keep our 4000 TBH somewhere for later, considering how we spends our bucks.

So off we go!
first stop: a decent breakfast. Initially, we wanted something that screams thailand, but as the hunger growls, anything just good enough. so, we had breakfast on this pretty little restaurant. I actually can't remember the name of the restaurant but the food was average-ish. so the hell with names.

After spoil our tummy, we off to beach named pathong beach. rent a cabana for two for 200THB and I stripped off to my orange bikini and soaked up the sun. I was not looking to get colored. I just love to sleep under the sun, with the sound of the sea. It really was an intoxicating experienced. In fact, i hate the wind there which blew cold wind. It confused the sun ray.

next, after the wind has gotten a little colder, we went to other beach named karon, kata, and kata noi. To us, kata noi is the nicest beach among others. less crowd, and no noisy sales girl and boy offering us anything they can offer. i just love kata beach. it has the perfect composition of sun, and wind. the sands is nicer too. (remember how i hate the sands? still has it)

had late lunch in this small restaurant on Karon main street. that serve food with a free really cold water. and the price was just perfect which took 100THB for two. happy tummy happy money. can't tell you the restaurant though, because it is so small, it doesn't have a sign.

back to hotel, to get ready for the night in a infamous bang la road. plan was to get drunk at a bar and enter a club. and we were. after bottles and cocktail, we had an arguement, that made us drove back to hotel in silent, but managed to resolve and back we went to bang la.

8 tequila shots and we went to banana club to get banana.

and of course, i got banana. xx

ho li day

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From: me
To: myself
Sent: Tuesday, September 24, 2013 11:38 AM
Subject: day one

September 18, 2013

no work today. on leave till September 20 just for this vacay with roma (bf). Yeay.

the plan was made on early may, so we already lose all the jitters and goosebumpy feeling along the waiting days. 

had only excitement now. AAAKKK

but unlike all my previous holiday, i didn't do my research about this destination: Phuket.

spontaneous.

Was not a bumpy flight ride, but 3 hours flight of full fight and debate between me and bf is tiring. 

and as soon as we step on thailand territory (well, not quite, since we haven't enter the immigration) we made peace. and kissed.

as soon as we passed the immigration, we were got a welcome gift (at least it was for me) which is free sim card for tourist with a data package, only need to top up which we can do in the nearest convenient store. this is a very wise thing. 

For the transportation, instead of taxi, we took a mini bus for 180THB a person straight to our hotel, Renoir boutique hotel. the driver didn't say anything, not even asked for our hotel. we just waved our tickets and step on to the mini bus. 

we sit tightly in a back corner with other people luggages. because that is the only two-seater left.

We made a stop first at the travel agent and this local asked for our hotel, and offered us some of the tour they have. after that, the driver drove us to our hotel. it was late at night and our hotel not anywhere near the center of nightlife in pathong, so it was rather spooky, and it is thailand, so it is not your fault your imagination getting a little wilder (in a scary way). 

Our hotel the Renoir Boutique Hotel was nice. considering we gambled our luck on agoda, this hotel is not as we expected it would be. Yeah outside was not really convincing, but the room is comfy and all parquet, with a big flat tv and huge queen sized bed. so, all is well. totally gonna put a good recommendation about the hotel on some travel websites!

this first night, we took a stroll to the beach (after had a (frozen) food from 7-eleven). local beers and a bucket of margarita from VW bar on the beach are highlights of this evening. 

tuk-tuk took us back to our hotel for 200THB (expensive)

i dozed off with smile. zz

2013

HIIIII... I'M BACK I'M BACK I'M BACKKK! YES ITS BEEN AWHILE SINCE I WENT AWOL, BUT HERE I AM NOW WITH A NEW POST AND I'M BACK FOR GOOD NOW!
(AND MAYBE I SHOULD TURN OFF THIS CAPS LOCK)

hihihi, I'm sorry with those abusive caps lock, but i cant help those excitement and i feel ENERGIZEDDDDDD. okay now *napas nady napas*, yes now I'm back and this is officially my first post in 2013 (eventhough it is march already, so sorry >.<). Guys, even though i feel so happy to be back here, i dont have anything to be shared.. (again, I'm sorry.. my excuse is gue terlalu bersemangat sampai gue bingung harus ngomong apa hihihi)lets see hmmm apa aja yang terjadi di tahun 2013 ini yaa..


- single. Yes,walaupun beberapa kali berganti-ganti pacar, tapi di tahun 2013 ini lah gue bener-bener single. I feel like I'm detoxing myself from a creature called man. i'm letting them go out of my system and wont let them get me down and desperate. and for the first time, i feel single and care-free.

- family comes first.  last year, i feel like i pulled myself away too much from my family. and i feel so bad udah kayak anak ilang. Tapi sekarang, di tahun yang baru ini i try to make up for it.. menjadi anak yang baik dan ngerawat bokap nyokap. I'm sorry fammiesss..

inti dari apa aja yang terjadi di tahun 2013 itu ya yang diatas ini.. simpel kan?!

NOW, let me give you a quick update from whats happening last week with pictures. 

thats a quick recap of what 2013 has bring to me. lets see whats happen next okay...

life the way it is

I cant believe I'm saying this, but I would shamelessly shout that:

I MISS WRITING AND I MISS YOU my dearly beloved blog. 

but.. I'm not sorry for abandoned you for so long, though. why? because i think i have a pretty good time. Not much, but enough good time. I went to new places, and have a new activity (well.. more like permanent activity.. but more to that later). So yeah.. good time and bad time happened.

   *> btw, i found it a wee bit troublesome juggling my english. If you find terrible grammar here and there, please just sigh deeply and ignore. or leave a comment of correction if you would, but dont judge, I'm a grammar-bitch.

Actually, i dont really know what to write, but i had this urge to pick my old new-journal that I bought  a month ago (which i initially bought to write anything down) and slit the plastic cover off. As i wrote my name down in the first page, i had this blast of memory about this blog, how i always write anything about my life, so here I am now.. babbling about it.

you gotta count your blessing right? even the tiniest littlest one. So here is mine: I got a new desk, which big enough to put some of my recently-read books, and anything i need in a hand-picking range. I persuaded my old folks to buy me a proper desk, which i can sit to study in a sitting healthy position, even though i'm still stuck in browsing junk, but at least one post of this blog is successfully posted in this very desk right?!

pictures upside were taken by my iphone and edited with pixlr

those are the sneak peak of my table. a books, water jug, flower panting, my macbook, and my pixar desk lamp (which i love so much).

I miss this good time, when I can browse through pages on internet, blogging, and listening to my playlist on itunes for hours. just like those time when i was unemployed. hihihi.

 

A confuse love

Dont say love, LOVE IS OVERRATED.

Love is just an excuse of being lame. An excuse to have a sexy time. An excuse to buy a chocolates and flowers. An excuse to cry and to hear some stupid silly song, and including making stupid poems. Love is just a man-made celebration, they make it seems all LOVEY-DOVEY, but FORGET  to tell you THE RISK IN LOVE. LOVE can  makes you feel so small and inferior to the one you called lover. Love is just an EGO, ego of wanting someone. Love is just an excuse to have a partner. Love is an excuse to have someone, and have someone to have fun with.

Love is not even real. LOVE IS JUST AN EGO. 

People think they believe in love, they think Love is the one that make them happy. NO IT DOESN’T. BECAUSE its not the love that makes you happy. The feeling of winning someone, the feeling of having someone to drag along everywhere, that’s make people happy. AND THAT’S NOT LOVE. THAT’S AN EGO.

LOVE is just something people spread like a virus. They spread it as if love is something people need in their love, like people desperately need to be in love. APPARENTLY people don’t need love. People only need the attention, and partner to have fun with. And then again, THAT’S AN EGO.

LOVE is just some silly excuse TO BE MAD at other people. An excuse for twotiming at the same time. An excuse to betray other people. AND also an excuse to HATE OTHER PEOPLE. And when SOMETHING (CALLED LOVE) makes you HATE others, THEN THAT IS NOT LOVE.  THAT’S AN EGO.

IF LOVE IS REAL, then it only makes you weak. HURT YOU SO BAD that you don’t wanna live in this planet anymore. IF LOVE IS REAL, then it only makes you so STUPID, that you close your EYES AND EARS to the fact that your lover only PLAYED  you all along. IF LOVE IS REAL, then your TEARS is the silent-prove of how YOU DON’T NEED ONE. IF LOVE IS REAL, it’s not supposed to stab you in the back. BUT LOVE DID STAB YOU, not only in the back but also right in the heart. BLEED you to dead, and leave you rotting.

I DON’T BELIEVE IN LOVE. I believe people need partner in life, but I don’t believe in LOVE. The partnership people need is NOT BASED IN LOVE. The partnership people need is based on mutualism.

Here’s one ULTIMATE QUESTION:

How can you HURT someone you claimed you’re in LOVE with, just to protect someone (that you said you’re not in loved with) of being hurt??????

Isn’t  it IRONIC?

I told you, LOVE IS NOT THE BASE of how people conduct their way of life. Because people do what they wanna do, ON THEIR OWN BENEFIT. LOVE is just another way to gain something in life easier. LOVE is just like a hooker on a street: gave you something, just to get so much more in return.

LOVE is something that ruins YOUR WHOLE LIFE.

And LOVE is just an excuse. Something to blame to when everything not goes on your plan. SEE? I ALREADY MAKE AN EXCUSE OF MY RAGE, AND I BLAME IT ON LOVE. 

I think I don’t need love and I wont believe it a second, if it only hurt me right in the heart.

Pagi

Hal-hal seperti apa yang kamu mimpikan tadi malam sehingga membuat mu terbangun di pagi ini dengan bersungut-sungut?

Atau ketika kamu tidak bermimpi, mengapa kamu harus marah-marah di pagi yang tidak salah?

Hal seperti apa yang pertama kali kamu lakukan ketika terbangun dan menjejakan kaki mu ke lantai di pagi hari? Kenapa lalu kemudian mencari alasan untuk mencaci?

Atau hal yang tidak kamu lakukan lah yang membuat mu kesal dan menyesal?

Saya rasa, Belum ada alasan untuk marah. Hari saja belum memutuskan apakah ia akan suram atau cerah.

Kenapa tidak membiarkan dirimu tersenyum saja dipagi hari, walau kamu tau seburuk apa hari mu itu akan menjadi.