Glimpse of last friday night

 

first, me and le boyfriend went to a new upscale bar slash restaurant named Hyde in Kemang. I've been bugging my boyfriend to go there since i dont know when. but we never had a chance until last friday night.

I've been really curious about their dessert named Choco Soil and to me, it was a satisfactory. i like it!

and i also try their special cocktail named Sip and Go Naked, the name is overrated though. I can barely taste the alcohol in there.

After Hyde, we went to another bar named Cowboys Kemang, the name a little bit tacky in my opinion, but the interior brought my to Cowboys era in America, also their customer are mostly a foreigner. Decided to not drinking, I only ordered sparkling water. Highlight about this bar, there was a band playing, even though it started late at nite.

wake up call

just when i feel this urge of a little brag about going abroad pursue my scholarship, i stumbled into this page and found this:

“Now listen, you who say, ‘Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money .’ Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, ‘If it is the Lord’s will, we will live and do this or that.’ As it is, you boast and brag. All such boasting is evil.” James 4:13–16

such a wake up call to remain humble and full of hope. 

Waiting in vain

Matthew 26:39 
He went on a little farther and bowed with his face to the ground, praying, “My Father! If it is possible, let this cup of suffering be taken away from me. Yet I want your will to be done, not mine.” 

Beberapa minggu ini, dan sepertinya sampai beberapa hari kedepan, perasaan saya pasti bener-bener tidak karuan, mood pun mau tidak mau jadi terpengaruh dan jadi super sensitif. Saya rasa ini ada hubungannya dengan proses seleksi beasiswa ADS / AAS yang sedang saya jalani. Detik-detik menunggu pengumuman yang tidak pasti kapan, menunggu kiriman email yang entah isinya diterima atau tidak, dan hal-hal seperti tersebut sebelumnya benar-benar menyiksa! Ini yang benar-benar dinamakan waiting in vain.

Ya, saya memang meng-submit diri saya untuk mengikuti seleksi penerimaan beasiswa Australia Award, tepat pada tanggal 18 juli 2013, yang merupakan hari terakhir pendaftaran beasiswa AAS. Tanpa berharap banyak, dan tanpa memberitahukan ke keluarga maupun ke teman-teman saya kalau saya sedang apply beasiswa. Alasannya? Jujur, karena saya takut gagal. Dan seiring berjalannya waktu, saya tidak berharap terlalu banyak dengan beasiswa ini, apalagi dulu teman-teman IALF sering cerita kalau AAS memang lebih mudah, tapi saingannya sangat banyak. 

Bulan pun berganti dan tanpa adanya pengumuman apa-apa dari AAS, saya pun lupa sama sekali dengan aplikasi saya. Sampai pada akhirnya di pertengahan bulan Desember tetangga datang mengantarkan surat dari panitia AAS yang datang dan dititip pada beliau karena pada saat itu rumah kosong. Dengan tangan gemetar saya buka amplop putih itu, dan ternyata isinya menyatakan kalau saya masuk dalam Shortlist, disertai dengan jadwal Tes IELTS dan wawancara JST pada bulan Januari. Puji dan syukur saya panjatkan. Karena masuk shortlist membuka jalan saya selangkah lebih dekat dengan mimpi saya. (dan denger-denger, bagian tersulit untuk mendapat beasiswa AAS ini adalah justru tahap ini).

Akhirnya memasuki tahun 2014, saya mulai mempersiapkan diri saya menghadapi tes IELTS tanggal 9 dan 11 Januari dan interview JST pada 16 Januari. Fokus saya pun lebih ke IELTS karena menurut saya yang harus dipelajari banyak: reading, writing, speaking, dan listening. Banyak sekali cobaan dari mulai mencoba belajar sampai pada hari H tes. Seperti iblis lagi mencoba mengusik emosi dan mood saya menghadapi tes. Dan memang saya sempat down pada hari H, tapi saya mencoba mengatasi mood saya dan menyelesaikan tes yang ada dihadapan saya.

Seminggu kemudian, pada tanggal 16 Januari 2014, saya menghadapi interview JST. Cobaan kembali datang karena minggu itu adalah dimana sedang diadakan Rapat Kerja Nasional BPN 2014 di Ancol dan saya menjadi panitianya. Malam sebelum interview, saya tidak baca apa-apa, saya bahkan tidak tahu apa yang harus saya persiapkan, sehingga akhirnya pada saat interview, menurut saya kurang memuaskan. bahasa inggris yang digunakan seadanya, dan saya sempat lupa universitas yang saya ingini. hadeuh.

Nah, baru-baru ini hasil tes IELTSkeluar dan ternyata saya masih mendapat band 7 (yeay!) walaupun terdapat band 5 pada materi writing. tapi setidaknya itu masih masuk kategori lolos IELTS. jadi sekarang saya tinggal bergantung pada hasil interview JST, apakah saya berhasil memikat kedua interviewer saya atau tidak.

Sekarang setiap kali saat mendengar maupun melihat apapun yang berbau Australia, hati saya pasti sedikit ketar-ketir dan pikiran saya kembali ke aplikasi beasiswa saya. Saya tidak pernah menginginkan sesuatu sampai seperti ini. Banyak hal yang saya rela korbankan untuk keinginan saya yang satu ini, tapi saya tahu kalau saya harus berserah dan mengembalikan ini kepada Tuhan. Karena sebagai manusia, segala usaha yang saya harus lakukan sudah saya lakukan, dan saya tidak dapat melakukan apa-apa lagi selain berdoa dan menunggu pengumuman yang sepertinya akan keluar dalam minggu-minggu ini. 

So.., Your will be done. 

have i thankyou, boyf?

Boyfriend, have I thank you enough?
for always there to catch me when I fall
for always listening to my inner-child's ego
for always support me when I feel discouraged
for always there with me to live a little
but knows better about my limit.

Boyfriend, have I thank you enough?
for giving me little surprises
for keeps fulfilling my needs
for drive me anywhere whenever I dont want to.
and pick me anywhere whenever I am

Boyfriend, have I thank you enough?
for spoiling me rotten,and teaching me goods.
for a life-lesson and sometimes a tough-love.
for every times, dimes,
and silver iphone 5s.

have I?


this post dedicated for my ERMTS. love you!

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printed nike sky high 2014

nike air max 2014

2 broke girls

"Twitter is stupid, and Instagram is Twitter for someone who can't read" have you ever heard the line? if you have, good for you. If you never heard that, well.. good for you either cuz I am here to let you know about it. and You're welcome by the way.

Those line were Max Black's from 2 broke girl. An american sitcom that i profoundly waiting every tuesday, to download. The series is set in the Williamsburg neighborhood of the New York City borough of Brooklyn, United States. It tells us about the tough life of a 2 waitresses, Max Black - a born and breed poor, and Caroline Channing - born rich malibu barbie, but turned poor as her father got caught doing the ponzi scheme. these two girl somehow became friends and have a dream doing their cupcake business as Max is a home baker, and Caroline is a brain of the business. Among those working with them at the restaurant are their Korean boss, Han Lee; Oleg , an upbeat but perverted Ukrainan cook; and Earl, a 75-year-old black cashier. Also featured starting late in the first season is their neighbor and part-time boss Sophie, a Polish immigrant who runs the housecleaning company Sophie's Choice.

I remember how i fall to this series is when Max return home and find her boyfriend and his friends listening to music on boombox banging their heads, Apparently her boyfriend, Robbie, is having “band practice” which is just a couch of weirdos listening to other people’s music and then “playing it in their heads”. 

BOOM!! LOVE IT ALREADY. (especially those packs Robbie keeps showing on the pilot. rawrrr.)

I love this sitcom so much. It always amaze me how they can put a very race-y conversation like its nobody business. Look at the diners member is very different: African-american, ukrainian, Korean, one day-shift gay latino (God forbid i forgot his name), and much else that come and go.

 this sitcom alse have a very smart conversation (which i bet also came from the chemistry of the actors) between the cast. The conversation could be very witty and have a lot sexual innuendo. which I found myself laughing. hard.

for example, when the pervert cook said "once you go Ukraine, you'll scream in sex pain" wth gross! gross but lol. 

Also i love how they are live in Williamsburg which based on my wikipedia observation basically a Mecca for hipster but Max Black has this hatred toward hipster. it is somehow funny. 

"Hipsters in Williamsburg will pay for anything if it makes them feel like they're in on something new no one else knows about. All you need's a gimmic" - Max black

here is another one on hipster 

Han Lee: Hipsters like karaoke.
Max Black: Replace the work 'like' with the word 'Hitler' and you have the 3 worst things in history.

I may babbling so many things on 2 broke girls but I better repeat some episode than wasting my time here. and I'm not a good story teller either. So you better download an episode, try watch it yourself, and have fun with the group of Williamsburg dinner.

Oh and its good to know that you can find yourself hot and motivated from a television. This one encouraging me to work my ass of like those two main characters which start from the very bottom. And from their cupcake business I found myself dreaming to open my own bar. My own reggae  bar. Whoop whoop!

xxo.

i just came to say Hallo o o o o

bubbye 2013, hallo 2014.

me walking forward to a better 2014 (bisa aje nad). finn's beach club,  Dec 2013.

This is my first post on 2014, and hopefully not gonna be my last. :)
I hang so much hope on this year. I even write those hope in almost every notes i got, just to be a soft reminder and a kick in a butt to not be a lazy ass. gotta werk it.

These are my wish list on 2014:
1. A scholarship abroad. This is my top priority. Not my goal, but my ultimate dream. And to conquer this dream, I applying in some scholarship program. I failed at first, just because some policy at work that requiring all applicants to have work at the institution for 2 years minimum (which i have not -yet). Not to be a failure, I applied again to other scholarship from Australia, which I passed the first administration qualification. And will have an interview in a week later.
I just hope God bless everything and be with me always in every step i take.

2. Reggae Bar Project. This is my project with le boyfriend to open a reggae bar because we saw a huge opportunity with it. Knowing that he has a connection with reggae community and also knowing jakarta has zero number of a reggae bar. A laid back up-scale bar that friendly to all range of customers. This project is a working-progress. Hopefully.

3. Tie-the-knot. well this dream were always in top three. but this year, it is in number three. because of this master degree i plan to have before all the wedding and family fuss.

Those are my top three wish on my list. The others are just some same wish i keep praying: like my mom's and daddy's healthiness, my working performance, my health, sisters' family, brother school and success, le boyfriend master program, his working plan. In addition, i also wish to get closer to my maker, and I hope this year i can maintain my relationship with pray diligently, read bible daily, and so on.

I also want to be better at crafting and home decoration. this luxury requiring a very diligent ass, which i have not gotten yet but trying to getbe one. Even maintain this small blog is tbo a pain in the ass sometime.

To sum up my 2014 goal, is BEAT THIS LAZY ASS OF MINE.

oh and the title came from Martin Solveig's hallo which were on repeat when i wrote this note. Toots!